09.20.09

listening to: Stronger, Kanye West

i havent blogged in awhile.

sorry to those who read my blogs often. i know you guys expect me to write like, everyday. ahaha.
im starting to regret writing so much of my feelings here on this blog. im glad i had, but still. after i get the feedback, it sort of sucks. :l and its not that pleasant for the other person either. but still. where am i supposed to put these feelings? to my pillow? i dont think so.
and i get your comment. thank you for that. and yeah i do have things to say about it, but im dropping for good. and i hope you do too. mmk? start a new page. dont forget it happened, but turn the page to a new chapter. you even said all best friends get in fights. we have our tough spots, but we get over it. and i like the saying, 'learn from your mistakes' becuase that's probably the only saying i really take to heart. and i try to really i do.

im starting back on seabiscuit. wooow i know. but its sort of that situation where the other likes the other and so the one that the other likes starts to like back only becuase that person starts to like the other. ahaha, very confusing right? the great mind of allyson. D:
i DO like him. a little. not that much. but seeing how i just came out of a relationship. even if i were given the chance to go out with him. it would be a no. everyone's asking me, 'would you go out with him?' no.no.no. maybe. lol. its like a 90% no. i mean, nothing's ever definite. but seeing how i just came out of a relationship, and how i handled that relationship, i dont even deserve a relationship with another guy. at least until i grow up and learn how to handle these situations better and more maturly without hurting the latter.

im glad we're good friends though. :)

im making friends for everyone. this way everyone has a someone. noone's ever alone.he/she may turn out crappy and fuck ugly but at least he/she will always stick by everyone's side. they love you. and they're not even created yet. hehehe. x)

BYE WILSON CHEAH! ill miss you while you're away in college.
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TINA! i havent been blogging recently. lol.

anyway, sunday afternoon, i should start on my much procrastinated hwk. goodbye.