09.03.09

listening to: nothing

i feel so crappy for what i did to you. pulling the wool over your eyes and decieving you for so long. you had a right to know sooner. i regret doing what i did. i deserve so much more.
there are reasons why i did what i did. there are better people out there. you were with a kid. i need to grow up. but at the same time, im at peace or im trying to be at peace with what i did. and im sure you'll have many more opportunities out there.

i jsut want you to be happy. that's all i want. but i need to be happy, too, you know? i would be so happy for you if you were just happy yourself. it would make me feel so much better. but im not asking you to just get up and be, 'im over it, im happy!' it takes time, and it'll take time for me too.

i hope we're still friends. i want to be your friend.
ill see you around. and im sorry.