ok. don't judge me. jennifer. axell. im blogging about Big Bang. SHUT UP. it makes me sad...that they're changing so much. this is how they used to be;
and then this is them now;
they used to be so cute! look;
but now they're freakin japanese. :'( not that i have anything against japanese. (eh) but why not america??? i liked how they were before. now they're all bright colors and BA-VOOM. not used to it. im not one to like change, you know? it depresses the hell out of me. why the hell did he have to grow his hair out?? :O ahahha. i have no right to judge them. oh well. i was itching to say that. and i needed something to blog about.
anyway. there are some mixed feelings im feeling now. if you bother to feel like looking up Doorway and listening to it, then go ahead. its exactly what im feeling. and it's making me so sad. but what can i do? i can't help that. i just really want to let it out in the open. i watched a tv show today, and this girl was having a tough time with this guy, and the situation she was going through..i can totally relate.
i feel though that these feelings are temporary. i pray they'll go away soon. but i can't do this alone. i need the other half to help too. i feel that's the role of a relationship. and i hope that each halves live up to it. im willing to change for you. and if you know what you're doing wrong, then act on it.
its tough. being in a relationship. but im trying my hardest here. my only other experiance was a summer fling and it was both our first. didnt work out. we're just friends now. good friends. but still. we must have done something wrong, and i can't open my eyes and see. you can say, ive never experianced something like this, and its very hard. emotionally. but i'm willing to bear with it.
mixed mummble jummble feelings. its a change. what can i say? i hate it. so much.
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