may 20

listening too: caffe latte by Big Bang

I feel kind of dumb still blogging. i feel like this blog is so empty without the two of you reading about this. :( oh well. i might as well.
things are well...its like. well. its like so happy on the ouside...but the deeper in you get, its so much darker. things are so so good. but so bad. i mean, i feel like im getting closer to everyone, which im glad for. but things for my closest friends are just going downhill. it sucks. i want things to work out and everything will be better and no more of this bullshit will be going around. no more people crying. no more people causing drama. so much drama is happening. with lorraine. with axell. with kirsten. omGOD. ughhh...and i feel like. being in all of it. i want so badly to work everything out without severing frienships. but things like this...its sort of impossible to avoid, you know?
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and then. with seabiscuit. its like. ive done alot. ive made alot of moves. but he dosent do anything. maybe he dosent like me. but i know he does. he drops the hints. but he never DOES anything. and its making me sad. cant he see that i like him so much? id do so much for him if he'd only do something for me. :(